I've missed, and miss so much. The innocent childhood times. The irrational high school times. I'm coming to terms, only now at the ripe age of 19, that these things are long gone and not coming back. Its taken me far too long to actually get a grip of "reality" and what is going on right now.

The more I blog, the more I realize just how little control I have over my life these days. It's becoming a boring lament - I seem to rant and rave about how far gone my life is. It really has gone astray, and its only getting worse.

Man, I need a friend.